*Shine On Diamond Eyes*

It was incredible, for the 6 hours we were there.
I already see an improvement in myself over last year. Success on self-quest!
The poi really help me loosen up and we discovered that we could link the poi to make a rope dart for Andy so all were happy! I blistered my fingers spinning so hard but it was wonderful. A real conversation piece, a handful of people borrowed my poi just to get the feel. =)
It rained around 9ish and all the sissies went underground so Andy and I danced in the rain by the fountain. I could almost feel the beat in the raindrops. I COULD feel the beat in my nose ring which made me realize it's the first year I've worn a ring to the festival.
We ran into Fleck and Heather, Mike and Toni, christina and hers, of course Tim, Charlene, Eric and Danielle also. Saw Kayla for a split second, Aimee from afar and faces from places. Spent majority of the night with my fella and Mallory Jade who is now deteremined to learn the Melbourne Shuffle. Check it out on YouTube, we all need to learn this dance.
That green apple I had was delicious.

Stopped by GreenThumb to see Scott and Mike for a split second, hung out on the fire escape, discovered a climbing partner in Mallory.

Annnd, I just woke up after 12 hours of sleep. MmmMmm

OY! And we've found a house! You just wait. =)

What a crazy, amazing and exhausting shoot filed week this has been so far!!!!
Sunday was a lovely 8 hour shoot with some of my new friends who are fest/circus performers. We had Mia the bellydancer, Lex dancing with swords and thai fingers, Fleck the clown/mime juggling, Fleck the contact juggler and a fire performer (a.k.a.) the fabulous, flamboyant, heterosexual and sexy TimTV. All of this wonderousness took place at Theatre Bizarre and if you haven't been there, look it up. Then take the amount of amazing talent from that day and times it by three.
Following the shoot was one of those rare, in-depth, five hour conversations in dark place with TimTV. What a wise and delicious character he is!!! He is already an incredible addition to my life. He poops. ;)
Yesterday (that would be ah...Tuesday) I drove out to Charlotte (west of Lansing) to shoot with Reven who is a well-known, well-respected female nude model. I am shooting her, and several other models for my Adv. color final. Her friend, local photographer Erica Spencer, let me use her wonderful basement studio to do the shoot. Both were very welcoming and extremely fun to talk to. We ended up getting into an hour or so long discussion after the shoot and then we ended up carpooling into Lansing to lightpaint and scout a location for one of Ericas upcoming shoots. We spent about an hour and a half running through an apple orchard at night illuminating the trees with external flashes. Needless to say, I got home several hours later than I had planned but it was pure amazingness.
Today, I have plans to shoot 3 other models in the studio at OCC, also for my color final. One of them may be backing out, another is not responding to my confirmation so...hmmm.. At least that will leave me three hours to shoot one girl. After yesterday, I don't know if I even need to shoot anymore, I have so much to work with already. But I love this project and I'm likely going to carry it beyond just my final project.
I work tomorrow and then practice/party at my instructors house in Auburn Hills.
Friday should be fun. Emergency CLICK meeting to discuss some internal issues, a job interview at Regeneration at 7:30 (Yes, the amazing thrift store in Ferndale ;) ) and then circus practice at the Dojo!!!!!

Why do I never write when I am in a good mood? Aha! Because good moods are so few and far between.

Starting with the hard stuff, things always gets worse when you think they can't.

Shortly after X-mas, my uncle was diagnosed with stage 4 throat cancer, in part due to his own bad judgement. He badly burned his throat on hot coffee last summer and has spoken with a serious rasp ever since. Yet he continued to drink and smoke. Come January, he goes in for a check-up and they couldn't even get a tube down his throat because of the masses. He's currently undergoing both chemo AND raditation at the same time. At this point, he's deathly ill and can't have visitors because the common cold could do him in. On top of that, he'll never speak again.
Shortly after we heard about my uncle, my grandpa (his father) was diagnosed with lung cancer. Likely the result of a lifetime of heavy drinking and smoking as well. A week or so later, we learned that the cancer has spread and is terminal. Every weekend my dad goes down to Ohio to visit my G-pa and record his life history. Meanwhile, my mom spends every week frustratingly baking molasses cookies for my grandpa to enjoy which never come out chewy enough because he hardly has any teeth and lost his dentures when he was in the hospital.

In addition to this, my stomach aches and headaches have all come back in full so I am never feeling well. Doc suspects ulcers and has given me a samples of meds to correct the PH of my stomache. They help but when I get really stressed out, they don't do a damn thing.

On top of this, my car has been overheating for the past month or so. I could drive it to work before it got too hot but it started overheating after only a few minutes so it sat in Andy's driveway for weeks. We took it in yesterday for a diagnosis. We got the call today that it's going to cost $600 to fix and nobody has that kind of $ to spare on my POS car.

AND, to top it all off but not the last of my problems, my dad is losing his job. If he can't find a proper replacement, we have to sell the house.

School has been suffering because I m so unmotivated and all I want to do is sleep. Andy is the only person that can be there for me on a regular basis and my situation is affecting him. He's broke because he has to support me and put gas in 2 vehicles. I can't even consider a new job without a car.

Welcome to my life.

Holy effing fuck.
Every muscle on my body from neck to calf is sore. In the good way, but it's dehabilitating.
Yesterday Andy and I drove up to Caseville for the fireworks, we left my house at 11a.m. but didn't get there until 4ish because we had a small GeoCaching roadtrip. If you've a lot of free time on your hands, you should check out: Geocaching.com. It's fucking addicting. I'm going big. =) We found 5 of 10 which I think is good considering we seek sans GPS. I want a GPS unit now SO bad. And people...my birthday IS next month... =)

We got to Caseville and decided to rent a jet ski. It was Andy's first time out!  He rode on back when I drove and I fucking kicked his ass! Though I couldn't throw him off no matter how hard I tried. We hit the most perfect wave and soared through the air 10 feet above the water. Perfect landing. FUCK. It was beautiful.

Yesterday feels like it lasted a whole weekend.
Boo to having to work in the morning. I'm sore as shit.

One of the best days ever. I could get sappy but I won't.

 I have dozens and dozens of bug bites all over my arms, legs and shoulders. Mosquito bites and little purple bites that don't itch but bled like crazy. That's what I get for shooting midday in a marshy area. The results were worth it but goodness, I'm going to be raw and scabby later!!! 
Ahhh! I almost think I need an antibiotic b/c of all the bug  venom under my skin right now. I have bruises from so many bites! They also bit a pre existing bruise and made it all white and blotchy. At least the ants didn't  attack...

And not just because I'm still eating candy...

There were baby bunnifurs in my garden!
My mom spotted one and as I was looking I saw something move in the background and discovered two more! Then as I was searching for more I discovered one hiding behind a lonely bush. Yes, I took pictures. As I was coming back with my camera I found another crouching behind another lonely bush!  They were the size of achinachea (sp?), Ethan's rat. A.k.a. Palm sized. Everytime my dad came by on the mower they would scatter and I was scared for them! I poked a few and got them to run home but another kept running into the wall so I picked it up and tried to carry her to safety. She jumped and landed on her back. AH! She sat behind the stairs shaking with fear. I took one last picture and then helped her to safety at last. They were so precious! But now I fear that the mom might smell me on the one and not love her. =(

Urban Dictionary:

Carly: Someone or something that gives you butterflys because of their sexy appearance, which gives you urges.
"Strokes carlys hair"

Shanta: A shit that you roll up in tin foil, poke holes in and hide somewhere either as a joke or to be mean to someone. Its is to stink and not not be found.
"Lets shanta that asshole's car"

Andy: Excessively endowed. Originally derived from the Greek, "Andreas", meaning manly.
"Word is, he's andy."

Kitty: a cute and hip Japanese term for someone who is crazy. This word is derived "kichigai" from Japanese.
"Why is that kitty yelling at his penny?"

Matt: Masturbating After Touching Titties or Masturbating After Touching Testicles.
"Fundo saw Matt at the strip club"

Mandie: A conservative lesbian. A lesbian who does not partake in lesbianoic sex and internet dates.
"Quit being a Mandie and have sex with the girl already".

Erin: One who finds socially awkward situations appealing ie, abortion & rape, but has the ability to maintain a cool social profile regardless.
"David is totally an Erin--he invited everyone to his house for a snuff film party and when some girl vomited everyone got excited and started high fiving David"

Tony: Synonym for the word “meathead.” Describes any muscular guy (or a jit who thinks he is) huge and only likes to look at his muscles in the mirror, drink protein shakes, and lift more than he can handle. Has trouble turning his thoughts into words. Found wearing sleeveless shirts or really tight ones. Carry around a gallon jug of water at the gym and have the mental capacity of a dead squirrel.
"There goes that effing tony again, buying more protein powder."

Google:

"Carly had just married fellow pop-superstar James Taylor a month before"

"Shanta and Lenny sit in the park with Shanta's many male admirers"

"Andy began his hike in the Grand Canyon National Park"

"Kitty creates unusual web page sets free just for you"

"Matt is a 30-year-old deadbeat from Connecticut who used to think that all he ever wanted to do in life was make and play videogames"

"Mandie the Peekapook, Queen of the Universe"

"Erin is buried in the editing room"

"Tony will sign the strip on the bottom right margin before he sends it to you"

I feel silly writing here. It's been so long.
I usually only write when something's wrong, which nothing is. Everything is perfect. Andy will forever amazes me. In the past few weeks I've noticed how much closer we've truly become. I can't sleep with any light in the room. He goes to bed before I do and when I come in to join him he has his cell phone face down and a tape in front of the clock on the VCR. =) He and I have the language of groping down to perfection. Poke, pat, rub, squeeze. Each one means something a little different! ♥

Easter is this weekend. A weekend full of bunnies for some.. =) For me, it's family and family, for a change. I'm to spend the morning and night with my family, the afternoon with Andy's. I love his family. I might even like them more than my own. At least they're more entertaining. His uncle Steve and Grandma are far more entertaining than all my cousins and aunts put together!

Now if only I could give so much a shit about school. Blah.

OH! I am officially employed. My dream job. I will be a team member at Joann Fabrics in Rochester Hills starting on Monday. =) Hopefully soon after I will be able to afford film and I can set up all these shoots that I've been postponing! I'm to model for a guy in Linden who does figure studies and fine art photography. My first modeling job! I know that I'm not the model type but it'll forever be a dream of mine. At least I can make it come true in little ways. I prefer to be behind the camera and I think that modeling will help me get a better perspective as a photographer. I've also half a dozen ideas that I'm working out with Kayla and I'm anxious to see them through. Keep an eye out for new stuffs!

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	You scored as Faerie. Faerie: Aren't you a cute little flying person? Faeries are earth spirits. They live among each element completely hidden. They have cousins called Pixies. Pixies however, are very mischevious. They enjoy tormenting other creatures for fun. Little pranksters.. I hope you never meet one. Pixies have a bad reputation for finding a creature and clinging to them until death. Faeries can be somewhat close to a Pixie, but mostly they are loving, playful, and carry with them a child-like enthusiasm for life. Hide among the pedals of a Daisy, you are a Faerie. Angel <table border="1" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" width="75" bgcolor="#dddddd">	75%
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	You scored as Earth. You have a mother personality. Much like the earth, you care for everyone whether you know them or not. A lot of people abuse your good nature, but you don't mind, as long as their happy. You're in touch with reality, and very reliable. You're not too stressed taking everything a bit at a time, many people find comfort in this behavior. Parties are most likely not your thing, you probably prefer hanging out in small groups with a couple of your friends. <table border="1" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" width="69" bgcolor="#dddddd"> Earth	69%
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We're officially home from surfing on the east coast!!!
Boston was incredible! If there's a city in this country I'd choose for my own, it'd be Boston. Our hosts were very nice and made us breakfast before we left for home. =) The couch I slept on was THE most comfortable couch, EVER.

Friday was the biggest snow storm to hit Boston all year and we were out shopping in it. There are some incredible shops on Newbury St. A hemp shop that sold dread shampoo, glass bongs and all natural hemp clothing. There was a fairy shop that sold the Amy Brown books, had a gorgeous Green Man candle holder and colored pencils carved from sticks. Second Time Around was a beautiful vintage, thrift, high fashion shop that had two locations on the same street. I bought a vintage looking piece from each that ended up matching quite well. Gorgeous materials! Lastly, I had artichoke and eggplant pizza! Both nights we curled up on the couch together and napped before going out. It was lovely, relaxing and simple beautiful.

Saturday was THE day. The weather was nearly perfect, save for all the slush that I was nearly drowned in. We went to Arlington Church, the one in the first several scenes of Boondock Saints. We walked across Boston Common, the oldest park in the United States. We stopped for about an hour at Brattle Books. The shop has bookshelves lining the empty lot next to it where you can browse and then take it in to pay. Inside there aree three levels, the top being the most rare. There was a gorgeous Quixote and a million other stinky, cloth bound books that were several hundred years old.
We then rode the T to Haymarket and walked up Salem street to Copp's Hill Buring Ground. Several of my ancestors are buried there and it's right around the corner from Paul Revere's house and the Old North Church. I felt so strange and amazing standing in a place that has existed for several centuries, knowing that stones and mortar under those buildings were placed there some 10+ generations before my own!
We went out for Thai that night. Andy had duck and mine was served in half a pineapple. Some of the best Thai I've ever had! We took our nap, did our reading and then took the T to Boylston's theatre district/pub central to see the drunks. Kitty called and I just happened to be talking to her while walking through a sex shop. =) A trolley turned party bus equipped with a strobing disco ball drove by honking it's horn musically. A man with crazy, glazed-over eyes walked out of a bar, came right up in my face and asked if I was wearing a green bra! =) On our way back on the T a group of assumed drunks were singing songs from The Little Mermaid and Aladdin! =) It was quite a delightful night.
Last night on our drive back we stopped at Niagara Falls! We arrived right at sunset when the city was silhouetted against an orange sky. Andy and I kissed in the mist. ♥
That concludes the trip, save for minor small details that I've either forgotten or ommitted for lack of importance.
I can't wait to go back this Summer. I must, I must!!!

Oh yea, in Boston there are several art schools with photography programs! Our hosts were each students at Mass Art; one a graphic artist, the other a metals major. Did I mention that Rob, our male host has a chain mail piece that must weigh 20 lbs?! They were super into Magic, WOW, Age of Empires and Mitch Hedburg.

My kitty was very sick last week. She has a lump in her throat and didn't eat for over 4 days. =( She's eating now but the lump is still there. The vet sent a sample to MSU for testing but he's almost sure it's cancer. =( She's been sleeping on my bed when I'm not there and on me when I am. We're leaving for Boston tomorrow and I'm so excited but I'm afraid that something is going to go wrong with the trip or that something will happen with my kitty while I'm gone. She's lost so much weight, she's almost a silky black bag of bones. She's not even that old! =(

On a not so negative note: Boston is going to be great! We're staying with two art students who live downtown. A graphic design major and a metals major. Erica, the girl seems really nice. I can't wait to go thrifting and antiquing and sight seeing! This is Andy's and my first out of state trip together!!! There should be more this summer, hopefully.
When we get back we're only going to have a few days w/ Matty before he goes off on tour w/ Alucard. I'm going to miss that squirrelly little shit! Hell, I spend nearly as much time with him as with Andy. Whatever shall I do?! =) I hope he has an incredible time!
I miss my friends. It seems as though I've been seeing them so little lately. Kitty and I have talked several times for hours at a time. Shanta, Andy and I made vegan cupcakes. I haven't seen Ms. Erin in longer than I like.
However! As you can see, the shoot with Kayla went great! I shot Andy this week and Tony's band Mirai last night. The shots of Andy should come out quite nicely, I don't know how photogenic that beard is yet.. The band shoot was fun and went better than I expected. They're a fun bunch of kids. I just hope that I didn't make any huge errors that I can't fix digitally. I'm planning another shoot with Kayla and working up to one with Becky.
SPEAKING OF BEARD, it's going after we get back from Boston. It's going to be like dating a whole new man!!!
Gr. Time to get home and a'packin'!

Flogging Molly was amaaazing! The lead gave a shout out to redheads and pagans, go figure. =) Andy smelled like cherries and some asshole spit an icecube at the back of my neck. WTFever, that show was incredible! Some kid managed to get up on stage and jump around for about 10 seconds before he was pulled off. Street Dogs opened and made me ache for Boston to come sooner! The lead of Street Dogs got down and kissed the head of a girl who didn't manage to make it onto stage while crowdsurfing. He also has a fondness for heights and was climbing all over the amps. And he looks like my Senior Prom date from afar. ALSO, he was once the lead singer for Drop Kick Murphys.

Andy's sexy when he's sweaty and punching the air.

I'm shooting Kayla in a few hours!!!!

I love when he wakes me up before he leaves in the morning for a kiss. It's fun having dinner ready when he gets home from work. I really love kissing him goodbye as he goes out with his buddies and asking him "try not to be home too late!" I feel so beautifully domesticated!

I'm in love with a man. His Beard holds the key to my heart. Thinking about him is equal to Wasabi Yum Yum w/ a side of Mango Mochi x209572057. Seeing him turns caterpillars into butterflies in my tummy. His voice gives my ear an orgasm so sweet that I hear harps in my sleep!

We should have a pizza party. And by WE I mean anyone! I've been craving an eggplant and artichoke pizza for weeks like nobody's business! What do you think? Shizz? Becky? Andyman? Who's got the place? We'll bring the toppings... and by we, I mean everybody. Mmmmmmmm.... Just the idea excites me! =)

My sister is the most rude, most stuck up and selfish person I have ever met. It's constant PMS with her, being bitchy and snapping at me for no reason... She's dramatic and throws things when she could just hand them to people. She likes to slam doors and grumble to herself when she's mad. She gets away with threatening people and being a brat because my parents think it's funny. She ignores me and then yells when I repeat myself. I don't get it, nobody else in my family is like this, I don't know how she turned out this way. She's more than half the reason I hate being home...


Speaking of which, and this has nothing to do with my sister but I have really hot female friends. I can't think of a single female friend that is even mildly attractive, they're all hot. I mean uncommonly good looking, in that exotic and mysteriously sexy way. =) I have some pretty attractive male friends as well... =)